Why I dropped out of high school? Honestly, I dropped out of high school because I felt like I had to fit in and that's one thing I'm not good at. The teachers didn't help me with anything and I wasn't learning nothing at all, I needed help, but teachers were always busy with the other students. So I got to a point in my life where I started looking at school differently. I noticed that school and the people I was surrounded by gave me anxiety and stress, I also got bullied so much in school to where I told myself that I was never going back.
What age was I when I stopped attending school and what hurt me the most? I think I was 15 or 16 when I stopped attending school. People would talk about me, my hair and the clothes I wore that hurt me a lot, but at the end of the day I taught myself that IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE ALL ABOUT LEARNING...NOT YOUR LOOKS. People also would pick on me because I was very quiet, but yet did they know I was the smartest in the classroom and I was very kind. I knew that school wasn't for me because I was already smart and some of the things teachers would talk about I already knew......
Do I regret dropping out? No I don't regret it at all, I felt great and I still feel great about it because dropping out has helped me get to know myself more instead of getting to know others more than myself. I never knew who I was because all my life I was surrounded by others. I went to school and got to know others a lot, but I forgot about knowing me deep down inside and how I felt. I was so interested in school when I was younger because I didn't care what others thought about me. I was young and innocent, but as I got older all of that changed, I would start to care about what other thought about me. I felt like I had to change me, but as I got wiser it was they whom needed to change the whole time.
How did my parents feel about me not being school? Well they were pretty upset that I stopped attending school. I just didn't know what else to do. I was being emotionally abused by people in so many ways. My parent would tell me "go back to school" "get your education", but never once have I told my parents why I stopped going to school, and if I did tell them something I made up all kind of stories just to hide the truth and the pain I went through at school. Sometimes I had thoughts of giving up, I didn't want to commit suicide like others did, so I knew I had to make a choice and my choice was to get away from everyone and stop going to school just start over again and forget the people that hurt me, I also started getting to know myself and love myself more. My parents still loves me and accepts me even though I'm not perfect. and I did not finish school.
Finally after dropping out, I gained my self-confidence back. I felt good and I felt authentic by being myself and I got used to being by myself and not fearing anything about being alone sometimes.... Sometimes all people need is a little quiet time and solitude to know themselves more. Dropping out of school made me see reality and what's really going on in this world. Truth is SCHOOL ISN'T FOR EVERYONE. Dropping out of school helped me find out my unknown talents that I actually enjoy doing now until this day and dropping out has also helped me come to realization that IF YOU HAVE TALENTS YOU NEED TO USE THEM BECAUSE YOU WERE NATURALLY BORN WITH THESE TALENTS AND YOU DONT NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL TO BE SUCCESSFUL AND USE YOUR TALENT. If you're reading this God bless you.
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